New Lease on Life

Yesterday, I got a favorable report from my second opinion: I'm okay. I don't have to worry or be afraid of anything anymore. While I may not be able to have children of my own someday, I'm okay with that. God has given me much more and from that I see that my cup runneth over.

Endometriosis (short version) is when the uterine lining finds its way outside of the uterus. It can cause severe bleeding, major pain and more headaches in life than a woman should be allowed to have. For years, I was the woman with the issue of blood. I suffered for 18 years before I knew what the condition was even called. I was labeled as just "having a problem" with mood swings and irritability. I didn't know what was going on, just that I was different.

I decided to get a second opinion, after much debate, because I wanted to make sure no treatment option was missed (besides birth control pills or surgery). The information I was reading from different websites and what other patients have been through put me on the path to a full or partial hysterectomy and more pain or pills that make your moods so bad you physically want to hurt people. It was a dangerous time for me. I'm changed pills and am beginning to exercise more. I'm watching my food intake (I don't like the word diet--yuck). With God and much favor, I'm where I'm supposed to be. On this journey, I'm learning to be more relaxed and anxious for nothing. I'm more confident in myself than I've ever been and I'm ready for the next phases in my life.

The world says children and husband are the next logical steps! But does God say that for everyone? No. At first, that was a tough pill to swallow: that I would not be able to have a family right away. Something I've dreamed of for years that still has not manifested into a bright reality. Along the way, I've met other friends who are like family and have just as much fun. My glass was always full, but I saw it as have empty. Now, I'm stepping up and out into a new life.

Father, thank you for this new lease on life and the greatest opportunity to learn, to grow, and to trust You even more. I love You!