The Light...

Y'know I've found myself to be a very negative person. I do self evaluations every now and then, frankly I've found myself to be self-hating and not knowing how to get out of my own funk. When I found what I thought was a way out (via eating, conversing, hiding at home) I've found I was only covering and masking a necessary evil. I've often wanted to run away, tried suicide several times, and often cried about the darkness around me. I'm learning--I'm grateful to say--I'm learning that holding on means light is just around the bend. I can and will see the light if I just hold on. That hold may be to just a thread, but nevertheless, I'm still holding.

I'm also learning to let go and when to let go. This task proves to be impossible, but I'm learning to do it. (Lord knows if I can learn it, anyone can!!). If someone has hurt or even damaged you physically or your spirit--let them go. And the funny thing is, you don't have to tell them. Reveal your guarded heart to God and let Him take care of the rest. Over time, you'll see you've let go of that hurt and/or damage, but more importantly its let go of you.

Ease into the light: enjoy it, bask in it, let it show your glow. If we were to just immediately be immersed in the light, we'd be blinded, hot and bothered. While I know the light is coming (and I'm anticipating it), I'm finding my way through the dark...