Dead Weight

There are some people I'm really glad to have out of my life. I call them "dead weight". I've tried to be friends, I've been there until I couldn't give anymore of myself. Yes, it was tough: missing meals, giving up money, listening to them complain (not vent, but complain) until the wee hours of the morning. Enough is enough. I, too, get tired of being everyone's angel and being there for them. Most often, these same people have proven NOT to be there for me. Frankly, I'm sick of it! Did you hear me--just sick of it!!!! So, I've come to a resolution to put me first. If they can't handle it, they should be in prayer for themselves. You may ask "why is she acting like that?" My reply (even though I know you should not answer a question with a question) "Why are you being selfish and only thinking of yourself?" I deserve better.

At first, I thought about the title "dead wait" because some of us wait to see if the situation gets better, if the person with the issues is going to change. Change does not seem to come at all. So, not only is the person holding you back, but you're losing time in your own life...

If I tell you I don't want to do something, don't ask why. Respect my decision. If I ask you to do something you don't want to do, just say so--don't give me an attitude about it or "lip". There's no reason for all the drama. Address me the way you'd like to be addressed. Respect me as your equal, not as your servant. Good luck being without me: carefully deal with the situation yourself before call/drag someone else into it. In essence, what happened to giving it to God? I can finally stand and do for me instead of being weighted down by troubles, ignorance, doubt, defeat, deceitfulness and greed.

To my true friends, get ready for new adventures, new sights and new smiles.
God, thank you for this day and all else you've given me. Thank you for helping me to realize, I do and can come first.