Bullying

First, let's address the fact that it doesn't just happen to people who reveal their sexual orientation. But that's all you see online: they got hurt because they're gay. I was bullied for quite sometime, and just like the other survivors--I'm better, I'm stronger and a fighter. To the ones who bullied me, tore me apart, made me cry for their own self gratification--it's over. I no longer have nightmares about what you're going to do to me. I no longer care about your life; only trying to live mine to the fullest.

I've found that people who commit ignorant acts do so because they have nothing else to do. There is a point of suffering within his/her own life that he/she has not identified. Just let it go and deal with the matter. To bully is to be selfish and to show you really don't have enough going on for yourself. Nice...

For me, my faith carries me. I realize that the body I live in will only be here for some time and then I'll go "home". A famous author once said she let go when she realized it was holding back her joy. So true. How can you know what it is to smile just because if you're always worried about your shadow or what's next. Is it really your job to worry? Once you let go--I mean really let go--your shoulders will lose weight and your body will feel like silly puddy...Why? You've held so much in for so longer (anger, hate, bitterness, nervousness, fear) that your natural body almost doesn't what to do. It will feel strange at first, like something is wrong. But trust me--it's a great feeling.

The key is to make this feeling true knowledge. "What do you mean, Bea?" Thought you'd never ask...Feelings only last for a short time. Get paper and a pen and just take time to write down how you felt and what was going on at the time you let go. Keep a journal of that feeling and the other good feelings to follow. When the bullying starts again (and it will) or any other ill feelings, go back to the journal to remind you of what made you feel better. Over time, that feeling won't be just a feeling but, indeed, a natural thought-or knowledge-to you. Hope this makes sense to you...

Father, protect the bullied that they may let go and live. Father, teach the bullies that they may learn from their mistakes. Amen.